Diet Pills

Birthday time is here! Today is the actual day, but the party will be when the girls are at their dad’s this weekend (Two days, and I’m there!)

I didn’t tell mom yet about taking Hoodia Gordonii Plus. I’m not sure how she will react to it when she finds out. Mom is a little bit of a health nut, and skeptical of anything that might give health problems as side effects. I looked at the list of side effects Hoodia Gordonii Plus might have, and they are mild compared to other diet pills.

She did notice that I have lost a few pounds when we went to the zoo, and my sister was making a huge deal about it. All the questions, and then “You are ok, aren’t you?”, and “Are you starving yourself?”
I had to convince them both that I am fine, better than a I’ve been in a long time, and that no, I’m not starving myself. I am losing weight because I decided to take control of my life, not because I’m distraught and depressed, quite the opposite in fact.

I have lost a total of 25 pounds now, in less than eight weeks. How awesome is that?

Anyhow, I still didn’t tell them that I’m taking something to help. They didn’t ask, so why should I offer the information?

The zoo was a lot of fun, but it was even more fun to laugh and enjoy myself, without feeling like I would regret it later and be made fun of. I realized this weekend, that I have been afraid to let myself have real fun, for years. When I was laughing at something one of my sister’s boys did, I realized that I hadn’t really laughed in a long time.

Now, I decided that I was going to work on having fun. Not the kind of fun that is limited to a little giggle here and there, or the kind of fun that you have when you are humoring someone, but real, honest to goodness, belly laughing fun- on purpose.

I know that might sound strange, but after laughing so hard at my nephew, I actually felt like something deep inside me had begun to heal.

Next weekend, now that I have reached my first goal of 25 pounds, Denise and I are going to see a movie. That is, on Sunday. Saturday is my PARTY!!

With my new goal of having fun while I make my new life, I think I’ll suggest seeing a comedy. There’s a new movie playing that I think might be just the right thing for me to enjoy. And guess what it’s about? A new divorce’ making a new life for herself. What could be better timing for a movie for me?

Anyhow, that’s my plan. Now, taking Hoodia Gordonii Plus, eating food I like, having fun on purpose, and oh, I almost forgot, walking with my girls. My life is getting better every day.

Last night when I put the girls to bed, my oldest took my face in her hands and said, “Mommy, you are getting happy, aren’t you?”

I told her that yes, mommy was getting happier every day.

“Good, because I don’t like it when you cry, I like it when you laugh!” and then she giggled. What could I say, I giggled too. It was either that or get teary, and she doesn’t like it when mommy cries. Mommy will be laughing more often from now on, on purpose.